Saturday, December 18, 2010

Food Stain Removal Guide

Quick tip from a busy mum.

Happen if your kiddos spill ketchup or soy sauce on their pretty shirts, never go bleach straight away - it will turn red and the stain will stick permanently while damaging the fabric and fading the colour. Go to the kitchen, smear a few drops of liquid dishwasher to it and rub under running water. Voila! Food stains are supposed to be washed with dishwasher pronto. New stain will be easier to wash.


Friday, December 3, 2010


Hilang Lok...


Tuesday, November 30, 2010

KACHH....Ko Ada???

Hi. Long time no news. Maybe busy or just simply lazy, hehe...

Right now I feel OLD. By that I mean verrrry old. I'm sure all of us ever had the experience of watching your nephews and nieces grow up from diapers clad to skinny jeans age. I have my fair share, my dad has 6 grandsons and 4 girlfriends. Other than that my main family tree are very close so my first cousins kids are practically my own 'fruity children' too.

I remember this girl as an ever cute and adorable one. Her dad is my big cousin, we are always close at heart I can really call him my own brother. She's the first-born, her mom and dad are good-looking people (well, it runs in the family). Her mum was a kumang and her dad can cause butterfly fluttering in your belly. Very short, stands at 5 feet tall, a very petite figure with a very sweet complexion. When she was little, I'd put her on my lap which I doubt I can still do. Love to hug and smell her until the time when she no longer follows her parents to visit. When kids grow up, we tend to miss their presence, they go their own ways until one fine day you realise they became adult.

At this moment I'm very proud of her, very driven and determined. A very strong and confident young woman. My hope is for her to succeed in whatever she does in her life. I want all the best things to happen to her, let her live the dream life I wanted for myself so that one day I can tell my daughter 'look at kakak Tasha, she made it'. So world, I'm damn proud of my niece, Natasha Charmaine Rickson. She recently won the Miss Borneo Beautiful 2010 pageant. Against all odds, being short and all, she is a jewel sparkling brightly.

So there friends, you know why I'm so silent lately, the growing kids made me emo. My girl growing up and my niece grown up---duh. I feel old... I feel old... Maybe I AM OLD.

Now enough... lets see her so many pix I pinyam from her FB.

Friday, October 15, 2010


haha tak jadi pencen, Najib kasi elaun pencen so nak pencen tua la. Blogging sampai beruban. Apalah alkisah arini? OK... merujuk kepada tajuk di atas, I have an essay to write.

Tapi memandangkan hamba sungguh pemalas maka hamba pendekkan cerita kepada beberapa siri. Starts with...


overheard somewhere at airport cafeteria.

makcik A : laki si MIMI ada skandal lahh.... lama dah, tu hal la so sedih all the time.
makcik B : sapa? kita kenal kah?
A - ala.....seketeri dia la, sexy Betty tuh!
B - oh wau!!! in that case she provides sex catering. well kind of Monica Lewinsky-ish.

ME ; ---smile---


you all know my baby Joy is a mouthful right now. One time we brought her to a game floor in a supermarket. Main kuda statik token 50 sen rides, main street fighter machine, drift king race an so on... so when we parents had enough already and the kids screaming wanting more, we had to sweeten our way with ice cream offer. then we go for McD's ice cream and swhile we sit and wait for movie time, bah suddenly Joy shouted out loud, made people laugh and adults give us unwanted stares.

Mommy!!!! SPERMA MAN!!!

lama lah mak fikir2, until one time my eyes stop at one candy shop, there it was, the great SUPER MAN. anak aku... berik malu sungguh.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

for all the tiredness and laziness in my life, I'm tempted to quit blogging or just stick to diary blogging like before.

Monday, September 20, 2010


Hi you all....How's raya? Ada have fun? Your kiddos kaya raya hari raya ka kumpul angpau? haha... As for me I had fun WORKING in a very spooky empty building for so many of you cuti raya for 2 weeks. Sunyinya.......

Ok back to said topic, my JOY sudah ada extra resume lah, watching movie in the theatre itself! Not any movie, she debuted with PIRANHA! Tapi too bad we entered the theatre a few minutes late so lampu dah padam, she screamed her head off - MOMBOKKKKKK!!!!! LoLz. But the after a few minutes she settled and sitting at MrVai's lap she savoured her unlimited popcorns and a large Wa [coke]. Not long into the movie she made the audience laugh hard when she screamed - eeeChak!!! again LoLz. But I'm proud of her for being brave because while many girls in the room closed their eyes JOY was all eyes and at awe with the huge screen and loud sound.

Talking about PIRANHA you people know I'm a DVD addict and can go on a long run 'hilang' sekejap menagih movie. As a true hunter I always get the kind of DVD version most of you mere mortals can only hope to have, so to say I can sometimes or most of the time dig out uncensored version. That mafaka PIRANHA you see in theatre had been chopped and diced to small fine or microscopic portions. You don't get to see the awesome parts like the 'boobs shaggin-naked duyung pair under the fibreglass boat, tequila on belly button/lick salt sprinkled on tummy and bla-bla-bla. Oh and also even the piranha tak teringin nak makan dick of the major asshole of a guy, kena muntah balik. Plus....Plus the cool part when cable terputus from the collapsing stage potong badan aweks in vertical cut putus setengah, kena potong lembaga cencorship pasal can see her boobies after the cut caused her bra to fall off. Lame sungguh lembaga cencorship kita, killjoy sungguh.

Whatever it is, we had fun yesterday night, lepas ni cari cerita kartun pulak, since she can sit still and watch. Have a good week fellas, love your family, love yourself.


Sunday, September 12, 2010

Pity Story

sad story just happen, a friend's brother is being chased around by thugs because he owed them just over 9K. what will happen to our world, I can see the end of it so clearly now. cops are just not helping, if it is reported the gangs will find out, but how? if not the insider inside the department itselves informing the ghouls. tsk....9K and the price of soul, maybe will be up on e-Bay soon. I pray for his safety.

Thursday, September 9, 2010


Tuesday, August 24, 2010


Saturday, August 14, 2010

My Baby Now A DIVA

Hehe sama la dengan tajuknya, update pasal si kecik, baby Joy dah pandai mengomel sikit2. So pandai la dia mengarah-ngarah kita, macam diva.

Dia dah pandai pilih konsep pakaian woi, takla spesifik which one but she can decide to wear pants or dresses. Ada selera kau.

Masa main LEGO dia mesti suruh anybody 'shidan' dengan dia sambil tangan kecil dia tepuk2 lantai sebelah dia, suruh teman main cucuk2, buat kereta tinggi2, senapang beng-beng. Lepas tu kalau dah fedup dia buang merata je toys dia. Tapi kalau suruh susun pun dia buat jugak, a good thing she practices play and keep.

Kalau kena tegur pula dia buat drama, kalau tak nangis dia marah kita balik.

Masa makan, tak payah suap2, dia makan sendirik macam hebat dowh. Biar bersepah biar sememeh dia nak makan sendiri jugak.

Pendek kata baby Joy dah tau apa dia nak, apa dia nak kita buat, have her own opinion lah katakan... Right now demanding sungguh, sampai tarik2 baju, seluar, apron suruh buat suruhan dia on the dot. Penat layan anak, aku larat nak baca je blog kawan2. No comment. So have fun you all, enjoy your weekend. Tata.

Sunday, August 1, 2010



It's been tiring the whole week, we had thanksgiving prayer for my bro in-law who recently got promoted and transferred to Labuan Shell starting tomorrow! Man....I did deep-frying the whole day I even fried my thumb! Anyway back to the topic, what is it all about? Friend of mine sort of hit the rock with his wife over what I think is inane issue. So this post goes out to you D. Ladies and gentlemen can all benefit from this.

Well, most of us married couples don't talk much about issues because issues lead to argument and that is ugly. Be it money, time management, kids, hygiene or anything many couples simply avoid bringing up issues that can provoke disagreement. However by doing so, you are actually doing something called 'bottle-necking' and the burst is going to be messy.

I argue a lot with MrVai. I love him so much but still I hit on that red button every time I feel that he needs some correction and so does he. I never allow myself to go to sleep with unsolved issues. God gave you mouth and that voice so that you can speak for yourself. Women always act their way through and men hate that. Be realistic he can't read your mind! Just be careful on how are you going to bring it up.

Myself I prefer starting while I'm washing the dishes. Just an example for you because I think during that time I'll have my attention or anger channeled to the water, bubbles and plates. I'd be less critical and try not to be cynical. Cynical is what most men despise. It doesn't help solving anything but it fans on the anger. Focus on what wrong he did, not him as a person so be wise to say "I don't think gambling is good for our household economy" instead of "You gamble wayyyy to much we're close to broke". Address the issue spot-on as possible so avoid beating around the bush.

Once he gives you that attention, calm down and bring it to the table. Give him your points clearly and orderly so he can follow what you say. Tell him why you think he needs to change his certain way and how it affects you and your relationship with him. When you're done, let him talk and share his opinion. He might not agree completely with you but be kind to tolerate too. No man change overnight. Talk more on how to adjust and rearrange everything. While doing so don't be hesitant to apologise even if it's not your fault. It works and will gain you respect, I know because I do that.

So don't be afraid to voice out your thoughts, doubts, concern or fear. Bring it up - and find a solution. Be rational and argue in a civilised manner, I don't want some flying saucers over my head. It's OK to be angry but there's always a way for everyone to be happy winning and losing at the same time.

Till then, bye.....muah!!!

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

From 25222

Dear customer, you have exceeded the 5GB/mth usage (Celcom FUP). Pls purchase additional volume or we reserve the right to control yr broadband speeds. TQ

pernahkah you all dapat mesej bunyi macam ni? walhal aku guna pakej rm98 yo! kalau nak berlimit haramjadah bagus aku guna streamyx. F*CK you celcom, i thought broadband is mobility and it is gonna be cheaper after the national broadband coverage campaign but the 5GB thing just sucks.

bah! aku nak marah2 dulu, komen pengalaman anda.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

ANAK AKU DAH TAU *&%@#$#$%$%^^

ye sedara dan sedari anak aku dah pandai mengarut.. as a mom aku rasa nak spank anak aku tapi she's so adorable so sabar je lah bukan dia faham pun. and I have to accept bad words comes first, well at least she's making sentences. OK dah tengah malam aku ringkaskan cerita.

Situasi 1 ;
me - Joy come pasang pampers
Joy - ngai, ngegeh, piiirah! [blame MrVai, he tought her]

#ngai = don't want
ngegeh = terhegeh-hegeh, mengada-ngada, kenja kata kita nak?

Situasi 2 ;
me - time for nap, come.
Joy - piyo?
me - go find your piyo.
Joy - weyuput? [where you put?]

Situasi 3 ;
me - mommy go work ok Joy stay home, don't be naughty k sayang.
Joy - Jojoy fowo?

Situasi 4 ;
she'd been napping, wake up, and look for me.
- where mommy? mami ja [kerja]...
hearing that I feel so kasihan.

SO kepada yang single, enjoy la rehat puas2, melancong, dah ada anak they're very demanding. you barely have time for yourself. GOODNIGHT fellas. Love ya'll.

Friday, July 16, 2010


ermmm...nothing much, busy mothering, busy working and mostly back to reading. But now as of right now I'm indulging YouTube.

OK see there? Right next to the lattest post is Kamus Anak-Anak. Since I can't really put my fingers on their daily diary, I keep up with the kids lingo. It's fun trying to get what they say and frustrating when they are jumping and crying but you can't seem to understand. My most recent headscratching time was yesterday. Mr Vai was nice doing us lunch and one of the dish is stalky and leafy choy sum fried with egg, then little Joy suddenly shouted ' I wan jujuk!!!'. I tried to ask her what jujuk is but she kept on saying jujuk again and again while pointing towards the dining table. Mr Vai came to rescue when he simply lift her up and make her point to the exact jujuk. Apparently to her, jujuk means the juicy stalk part or if it is today's case it also applies to long beans. There you go problem solved, all the way being mother I couldn't have missed that skill. So now I'm keeping roll on her daily new words and for you guys to read too.

have a nice day, and enjoy it!

Monday, July 12, 2010

Toe Curling Footie Orgasm

Oh yeah you got that right.

I slept at 6 a.m today with a huge smile fixed on or rather pasted on my lips. I drifted into sleep dreaming of Iker Casillas and Raul Gonzalez (ok I know he's not in the game) having fun going around town. Iker Casillas in particular had been my huge crush since 2002 World Cup. And oh....oh....I still keep the play card--teenage at heart oh yes. He is GORGEOUS OMG_ok now I'm flat on spasm. I so envy his girlfriend, what a lucky girl. His reputation is indeed impressive. Iniesta might have scored the winning goal, but Casillas saved so many tries and that means more. Go google him yourself I can't keep ogling over him all day, MrVai well might ask for a divorce. Raul on the other hand, simply is a magician on the field toying around with his crystal ball. AND THEY ARE SPANISH! What female human being wouldn't go ga-ga over their romantic eyes, thick brow and so oh handsome total package.

I always enjoyed watching Spain game, you can feel their passion. Surely I like Germany too, they are full of tactics. But Spainiards are different, unlike other games you can hear the commentators talking about their passings, fouls, missed penalties and oh yeah the common offsides. Spain game, you get that too. But do notice that the talking guys will too reason the act. You hear them praising the team spirit, the quick pick-ups, the recovery from failed trials and so on. My inside felt churned and it was just similar with the butterflies you get when waiting for the first date. Despite the size, they have quick strategy and while their movement was always baricaded by 3-4 giant Oranjes the Spainiards always manage to sneak around them.

Back to this morning, I was loud and MrVai wanted to make me watch the game with PaInLaw@ his dad. I kept on fidgeting and oh-oh-oh-ing all the way through the game while he gave me the weird look. If it wasn't footie season people might think that we're having a wild sex. Haha. But hey I'm the stadium type so sitting in front of the TV simply is a downgrade of enjoyment.

Cut it short, watching the Spain game is like sending them off to war. They play the games with their heart. I noticed the Queen Sofia of Spain was there to lend her support, and my-my that really impressed me. Hm...imagine Malaysian King up there, we'd have to perform the ampun Tuanku stuff. Errh...

So have a nice evening, I'd be off feeling like I'm falling in love. Perhaps this will wear out in a week. Bye.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Wednesday, June 23, 2010


hm...hari-hari sibuk tapi jiwa tak tenang. Blog kosong bersawang macam rumah hantu. Anyway updates running in...

LAST 16th was Darrien's birthday tapi party was 19th. Kaya raya budak tu, dapat RM130 angpau. Mak dia ingat aku pregnant lagi, she saw our FB party pic, saw my perut lalu konklusi aku pregnant. I lol-ed hard. Baju aku hari tu memang buat aku nampak pregnant, well whatever.

22nd---MrVai offer nak sponsor beli handphone baru, wah...murah hati ye? Aku nak phone flip, tapi dia tak kasi because babyJoy tu ganas, patah phone baru tau so OK pass. Dia offer the berry-berry thing or touch-touch thing tapi I pick the cheap 'cybershot sony' with 3.2mpix cam. Why oh Why aku taknak berry stuff? Susah nak guna that is, aku jenis orang call and sms je so the rest tak penting sangat pun. And the touchpad thing? Aku tak yakin ia dapat survive sebulan pun before kena scratch here and there. Alahai kadang tu dengki jugak tengok kawan-kawan beryy-ing, tapi kalau tak praktikal untuk aku takpelah..



Tuesday, June 15, 2010


stretch!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hiya! I miss you all!

hai...hai...hai!!!! anyway come join me buat page BAN KAK SOPIA FROM CALLING ALL RADIO STATION.

oh sudah lama ya saya tidak kemari...template baru gik ya, haha... ohai you guys! how are you all? ada sihat? mak sihat... kenapa ya lama tidak muncul? jeng-jeng-jeng!!!!

Masa pulang dari Kuching hari tu, almari nampak semak, yang baju berlipat jadi bergantung, adakah....YA!!! My dream became reality! Mr Vai memang menanti di rumah, mencuci kereta, beri memew makan dan menyiram bunga. The project ended early so contract pun habis awal. Oh if you wonder - he went diving this time, piloting ROV entah bila lagi. Itu menjawab speku si Ahmoi apa yang digali MrVai di laut sana. Dia tidak menggali utai, dia memantain utai, hehe. Hahaha... that kind of explain my silence, enjoying every minute with the beloved beloved. But now its World Cup or ballcup kata si Darien, I have some reason to spend some precious hours on my taman hati.

BabyJoy tengah tak sihat, busy jugak lah nursing anak lincah walaupun tengah sakit. This morning bangun tido mata melekat pula, kesian... Darien pun flu jugak, kalau tidur malam macam cute la pulak dua beradik tu berpegangan tangan and sleep with the same posture. Malam tadi tidur sebantal, awww... Yesterday Darien innocently suggest - esok we go stadium see ballcup k? Oh-Oh-Oh apa dia ingat nak pegi South Africa tu naik bas Kuala Baram saja kot.. So my precious friends, I'll be around reading and commenting now, cuma maybe agak busy to write a new and meaningful entry. With 3 monsters to mind it's a bit difficult to find time for myself even, sigh.

Have a nice day, you like my new template? Rasa fresh macam lepas mandi lah.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010


Penatnya.........................................................alasan saya bercuti musim Hari Gawai ini.

Nowadays cuti Gawai cuma alasan mahu bercuti dan berkumpul dengan keluarga jauh dan dekat. Petani-petani sawah kini cuma banyak di Farmville dan Farmtown jadi boleh lah diambil alasan ini untuk mengekalkan perayaan hari Gawai dalam kalender. My blog will be stagnant macam air parit tercemar tak bergerak selama seminggu. Be back from holiday on the 8th. I'm looking forward to see my parents, family and friends. I guess a visit to my late mother and brother's grave is essential too.

Harap-harap masa pulang nanti Mr Vai ada di rumah, tengah siram bunga, berik memew makan, cuci kereta. Harap-harap masa tu ada scene video clip slow-mo showing me running towards his embrace. OK - tipu. Teruskan berangan.

Pulang Kuching by road, naik RUSH - hopefully selesa. So see you guys when I'm back from holiday. For the time being, I mintak maaf kalau I pernah langgar blog yuolls, basahkan lantai rumah dan sebagainya. Enjoy Holiday!

Thursday, May 20, 2010


Kenapa Aku Ada Sindrom Patuh Pada Ahmoi?

explain this : when she knocked my door shouting BANCI! BANCI! like a screaming banshee I'll dully oblige and make an update entry although I'm still on my DVD run. ntah apa la aku nak tulis, korang ni memang macam anak aku, tak layan lalulah hentak-hentak kaki sambil bergayut kat kaki aku.

OK memandangkan aku tengah 'idealess' to be an idealist jom sini bapak-bapak ibuk-ibuk semua....nya!!! Actually aku tengah sakit hati dengan DVD yang aku beli, OK fine pirated but then I wouldn't be watching it more than once so to HELL with it. Korang perasan tak especially kalau korang beli DVD 4 in 1 selalunya akan ada satu movie yang best sangat atau HYPE je lebih soru. Macam yang aku sakit sangat usus besar is the one yang aku harap tak mengechiwakan aku turned out rubbih much. The one yang aku beli ada

1- Inglorious Basterds [bradd pitt wah-wah~~~]
2- Wrong Turn At Tahoe [despite unfamous, I like this one]
3- Colin [ada zombie- biasa la pakej bonos]
4- Bad Lieutenant ---inilah lakonan paling sampah nicolas cage

Macam yang aku carut tadi, dalam 4 movie to memang akan ada satu je yang korang akan realy like. Selain DVD atas tadi, aku ada few lagi yang selalunya hampeh je, buang masa but hey, I'm a slave to sequels so I ended up watching all anyway. Takpelah...sapa suruh beli pirate movies kan? [sambil tarik rambut satu-satu]


Tapi kan ehek~ aku ada beli 8 in 1 KAMASUTRA MANUAL DVD, tapi takde satu pun yang mengechiwakan. HAHAHA!!! Korang ejek la aku mak tak kesah yuolls. I'm a curious person so bila aku nampak a simplified version of THE SACRED BOOK aku yakin aku harus beli. But to me that DVD tak boleh nak dikelaskan sebagai blue sebab display dia nampak teknikal sangat, sungguh sekolah punya gaya. Shooting yang profesional takde bunyi ~ah-ah-aw-oh!!! macam filem blue yang korang selalu tengok dalam format JPEG tuh. Sungguh aku beli masa tu laki aku jeling semacam je tapi aku faham la, kesyer tu pun senyum semacam je yang ni aku rasa nak tempeleng. Penjual DVD local kita ni bagi aku ramai yang masih kurang etika, kalau korang beli 'adult movies' kat overseas they will treat you professionally as so careful not to embarrass you. Macam aku cakap tadi, aku ni curious so ada je yang pelik aku belilah pedulik aku orang nak fikir apa. Bukan aku galakkan korang beli blue lah ye? Aku cakap pasal aku.

Dah la sampai sini dulu, lepas ni aku nak tengok Legally Blonde combo pulak so lepas ni bolehla aku join bebudak pink BFF kat luar tu OMGawd!!! sama-sama.

~~aku blah dulu, kenapa aku rasa menyampah sangat dengan entry kali ni hah?

Saturday, May 15, 2010


~4 single movie DVDs
~2 4 in 1 DVDs
~2 unread novels

kalian memahamiku, izinkan aku melunaskan serakahku, be back in no time.


Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Feel Like Crying For No Reason?

A friend e-mailed to me, a real tear jerker. I just cry, my mom is now in heaven and I can really understand the kid. Let's cry together. sobs~

4 years ago, an accident took my beloved away and very often I wonder, how does my wife, who is now in the heavenly realm, feel right now? She must be feeling extremely sad for leaving a husband who is incapable to taking care of the house and the kid. 'cos that is the exact feeling that I have, as I feel that I have failed to provide for the physical and emotional needs of my child, and failed to be the dad and mum for my child.

There was one particular day, when I had an emergency at work. Hence, I had to leave home whilst my child was still sleeping. So thinking that there was still rice leftovers, I hastily cooked an egg and left after informing my sleepy child.

With the double roles, I am often exhausted at work as well as when I am home. So after a long day, I came home, totally drained of all energy. So with just a brief hug and kiss for my child, I went straight into the room, skipping dinner. However, when I jumped into my bed with intention of just having a well-deserved sleep, all i heard and felt was broken porcelain and warm liquid! I flipped open my blanket, and there lies the source of the 'problem'... a broken bowl with instant noodles and a mess on the bedsheet and blanket!

Boy, was I mad! I was so furious that I took a clothes hanger, charged straight at my child who was happily playing with his toy, and give him a good spanking! He merely cried but not asking for mercy, except a short explanation:

"Dad, I was hungry and there wasn't anymore leftover rice. But you were not back yet, hence I wanted to cook some instant noodles. But I remembered you reminding me not to touch or use the gas stove without any adults around, hence I turned on the shower and used the hot water from the bathroom to cook the noodles.. One is for you and the other is for me. However, I was
afraid that the noodles will turn cold, so I hid it under the blanket to keep it warm till you return. But I forgot to remind you 'cos I was playing with my toys...I am sorry Dad..."

At that moment, tears were starting to run down my cheeks...but I didn't want my son to see his dad crying so I dashed into the bathroom and cried with the shower head on to mask my cries. After that episode, I went towards my son to give him a tight hug and applied medication on him, while coaxing him to sleep. Then, it was time to clear up the mess on the bed. When everything was done and well past midnight, I passed my son's room, and saw that he was still crying, not from the pain on his little buttock, but from looking at the photograph of his beloved mummy.

A year has passed since the episode, I have tried, in this period, to focus on giving him both the love of his dad and mum, and to attend to most of his needs. And soon, he is turning seven, and will be graduating from kindergarten.. Fortunately, the incident did not leave a lasting impression on his childhood memories and he is still happily growing up.

However, not so long ago, I hit my boy again, with much regret. This time, his kindergarten teacher called, informing me of my son's absence from school. I took off early from work and went home, expecting him to explain. But he wasn't to be found, so I went around our house, calling out his name and eventually found him outside a stationery shop, happily playing computer games. I was fuming, brought him home and whack the hell out of him. He did
not retaliate, except to say, 'I am sorry, Dad'. But after much probing, I realized that it was a 'Talent Show' organized by his school and the invite is for every student's mummy. And that was the reason for his absence as he has no mummy.....

Few days after the caning, my son came home to tell me, the kindergarten has recently taught him how to read and write. Since then, he has kept to himself and stayed in his room to practise his writing, which I am sure, would make my wife proud, if she was still around. 'cos he makes me proud too!

Time passes by very quickly, and soon another year has passed. It's winter, and its Christmas time. Everywhere the christmas spirit is in every passer-by...Christmas carols and frantic shoppers....but alas, my son got into another trouble. When I was about to knock off from the day's work, the post office called. Due to the peak season, the post master was also on an edgy mood. He called to tell me that my son has attempted to post several letters with no addressee. Although I did make a promise never to hit my son again, I couldn't help but to hit him as I feel that this child of mine is really beyond control. Once again, as before, he apologized, ' I'm sorry, Dad' and no additional reason to explain. I pushed him towards a corner, went to the post office to collect the letters with no addressee and came home, and angrily questioned my son on his prank, during this time of the year.

His answer, amidst his sobbing, was : The letters were for Mummy.

My eyes grew teary, but I tried to control my emotions and continued to ask him: " But why did u post so many letters, at one time?" My son's reply was: " I have been writing to mummy for a long time, but each time I reach out for the post box, it was too high for me, hence I was not able to post the letters. But recently, when I went back to the postbox, I could reach it and I sent it all at once..."

After hearing this, I was lost. Lost at not knowing what to do, what to say.....

I told my son, " Son, mummy is in the heavenly kingdom, so in future, if you have anything to tell her, just burn the letter and it will reach mummy. My son, on hearing this, was much pacified and calm, and soon after, he was sleeping soundly. On promising that I will burn the letters on his behalf, I brought the letters outside, but couldnt help opening the letter before they turn to ash.

And one of the letters broke my heart....

Dear Mummy,

I miss you so much! Today, there was a ‘Talent Show' in school, and the school invited all mothers for the show. But you are not around, so I did not want to participate as well. I did not tell Dad about it as I was afraid that Dad would start to cry and miss you all over again. Dad went around looking for me, but in order to hide my sadness, I sat in front of the computer and started playing games at one of the shops. Dad was furious, and he couldnt help it but scolded and hit me, but I did not tell him the real reason. Mummy, everyday I see Dad missing you and whenever he think of you, he is so sad and often hide and cry in his room.. I think we both miss you very very much. Too much for our own good I think.. But Mummy, I am starting to forget your face. Can you please appear in my dreams so that I can see your face and remember you? I heard that if you fall asleep with the photograph of the person whom you miss, you will see the person in your dreams. But mummy, why havent you appear?

After reading the letter, I cant stop sobbing. 'cos I can never replace the irreplaceable gap left behind by my wife....

For the females with children:
Don't do so much overtime. If you cannot finish the work, it must be some kind of problems within the company, and it is not your sole problem. Feedback to your boss. Endless overtime may not necessary be the answer to the problem. Take care of your health so that you can treasure and take care of your little precious.

For the married men:
Drink less, smoke less, cos nothing can replace your good health, not even business nor clients.
Try thinking this way, are you able to work till your clients are totally dependent on you? or your boss is totally dependent on you? In this society, no one is indispensable. Take care of your health, so that you can take care of your little precious and your loved ones.

For those singles out there:

Beauty lies in loving yourself first. With confidence and loving yourself, you will see the beauty in other things around you. You will be able to work better and happier. Don't let your health be affected by your work or your boss, so nothing matters more than your well being.

Sunday, May 9, 2010


Mulakan harimu dengan sengihan - sungguh tak ikhlas. Ok mulakan harimu dengan senyuman.

Another day another story but today is a different story because it is not like every other day it is MUMMIES DAY - imagine zombified moms. I'm not going to sing praise about my mothering skills but I'll spin and tweak it a little to my own daily version. Being a mother to a hyper-vitagen-sugared-peanuts-protein 2 year old daughter and a stepmother (yes, you got it right) to an emo-rebel-potty mouthed 7 year old son is not FUN, it's both tiring and trying. While I'm likely to be the undesired police in the house my kids get along very well with each other, and their dad. There's no half sibling or step sibling in the house. Darrien and Joy are unseparable, put the daddy into the mix they will be ice kacang and leave me to be the straw- get what I mean?

Character breakdown starts with DADDY;
Very able in many ways - excellent cook, sporting clown, the 'yes you can' authority and practically the DON of the house. Our kids adore him, daddy can't be wrong-daddy is great-daddy is so cool-and whatever superb. If the kids have anything they wish to have, it's their daddy who gets the nudge and rants. When they play/which I'm not so good at, they bring down the house to rubble. Means...mommy will tidy up, it's OK, just play. I once go to sleep at 2 a.m. cleaning baby Joy's scribble on our kitchen wall and clear the kitchen after Darrien & Dad played Jamie Oliver. Daddy being nice decided to teman me cleaning and made me hot milo to end-and a good neck massage. His words always being 'you'll miss the moment' really helps me calm down. But still, when the need arises for him to be strict you'll see the kids making beeline behind me. I always smile at that scene.

Big Brother Darrien (he was 3 when we first met and peed on my lap, sleeping)
Potty-mouthed yes, BIG TIME. At 7 years old it is impossible to stop him from discovering foul words especially when this is the boy who travel 3 residences; our's, his mother's and the gramps. He has a lot of cousins and of various age range, a recipe to disastrous lingo. He's very aware of your every words or statement and that leads to an emo kid sitting on the stair if you don't watch what you say. A very certain personality he knows what he wants and if restrained will rebel his way through. His attention span is 5 mins. Give him a new toy he will get over with it the day after. No matter how expensive the toy is, it will still break down. He's with us mostly on weekends only so he gets free pass from being grounded. However he can be very sweet and considerate, taking care of baby Joy when he knows I'm too tired to run around the house after them both and doing chores at the same time. And very good looking too. Here's the lovely part, his mother refused for him to call me anything equaling to mother so he joined his dad calling me 'dear'. *adorable* imagine him calling me that at 17, priceless.

Baby Joy
This is the one baby to whom every nursery will close their door. Very hyperactive and super loud. She zips around like energizer bunny, climbing anything like spiderwho, thrash around like we have 3 maids at our disposal. Our own Picasso I think I'll paint our walls BLACK from tiring days cleaning walls and floor. Very cute with her naturally golong @ curly hair but I'd advise you not to be fooled by that, she bites and screams like screeching tires. I think she's auburn, lol. She eats a little but takes everything that comes her way. Chocolate @ chet is always available thanks to her designated Aunty Mamam. Her daddy introduced Coke to her months before her first birthday, with that amount of sugar...HYPER. Joy's vocabulary for now are very limited and somehow I found myself understanding among others

mam - eat / ding - drink / chet - chocolate / brrr - coke / kakut ya - takut ya
kakit - sakit / hee hoo - bathtime / smeyee - smelly / o'oi - sleep

~17 months with her aunty Mamam~
*relevan lah tu, the kotak was Happy Meal Box*

Combine the 3 'monsters' we have a real life moniker of 'How To Train A Dragon' . I'm the trainer with 3 dragons. Their antics are impossible, their mess unbearable, the noise numbing but take one away and I'll be miserable. Like Mr Vai said, our life might be 'tonggang langgang' but we do have a wonderful one. Mothering may not be fun, but seeing the kids growing up great and at the right path is rewarding. I only hope I have enough patience and resource to face their teenage years. That I think will be more challenging, right now it's all naughty and cute. So far, I think I did just fine. Although everytime I end my day looking like mummy I surely did enjoy my day being mommy to my kids. There...

Adorable kids+Cool Dad+Miserable Mom= Happy Family

make it everyday

p.s: bah, apa lagi. yang single2 ya bila gik? on a side note, my birth mother died before I was 3, so my stepmom cared for me just about the same age I took Darrien. the similarity, I feel her.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010


~Sedihnya rasa hati, Baby Joy birthday 17 Mei nanti, she'll turn 2 and guess what? Her beloved daddy won't be there blowing candles with her like yesteryear~

Perangai makin naughty, kobek-kobek and throwing tantrum and what nots I just can't seem to handle. Nak aku spank-kan nanti masa nangis dia psycho aku balik, calling her 'daddy', when she knows he isn't there. Tak ke sebak aku, rasa bersalah lagi ada. These two 'monsters' are so close I can't get my way with any one. If I 'pap' the daddy the baby will 'pap' me. If I scold the baby the daddy will animatedly 'pap' me to cheer baby up.

Now that the daddy is away I'm left with this guilty feeling whenever I have to discipline her 'a bit'. And I know Mr Vai misses Baby Joy more than he misses me. But when she's sleeping she looks so angelic and all my day's problem seems so distant. All the wonders of being a temporary single mum.

~ 6 months and napping with daddy~
*note the same sleeping posture*

~dear...I miss you!

Thursday, April 29, 2010


Ohai again... How's your week going so far? It's Friday and officially almost a week since my last entry. Maaf ye, very unmotivated right now, walau penuh dengan idea tapi malas nya hanya THE ONE saja yang tahu. However short one today, something to share selepas insiden FB itu hari. Yang membaca sila ambik sebagai pengajaran dan peringatan. Aku terasa sebab bapak aku orang tua GAMEN yang tak berapa nak berpangkat sangat, chekgu je, takde degree pon, dah pencen pon...

Sebelum aku mencarut, aku mintak maaf dulu, entry ini aku tuju-tuju kat orang yang 'koma' saja. Yang ikhlas nak berkhidmat untuk negara macam Ahmoi sakit tu susah payah ajar anak-anak sengal kelas peralihan tak reti BM aku memang salut. Yang mana elok-elok dah jadi engineer tapi nak kerja GAMEN sebab memang itu niat dia nak berkhidmat untuk negara, baguslah. Yang berkhidmat di spetal macam MA Placebo tu pun aku sanjung, korang memang fabeles. Senang cakap kalau makan cili baru la rasa HOT & SPICY kan? Aku awal-awal buat scene pagi raya duduk mintak hampun kat korang yang tak bersalah. ' I mintak maaf, I tak sengaja'.

Generasi baru termasuk kita yang baby boomers ni memang bertuah, peluang sambung belajar sentiasa dan semakin terbuka luas. Nak melangkah ke LONDON dah tak impossipazel dah, nak lagi kalau ada seguni duit for winter bonfire. Sebab nak masuk UiTM sekarang ni memang peluang yang terbuka dan tak perlu ada IQ count 145 segala. Kolej swasta pun sekarang ini pun ada PTPTN bukan macam dulu nak kena biasiswa FAther-MA@mother. Pendek kata tak mustahil dah untuk individu itu memiliki segulung kertas yang entah sapa beri nama ijazah tu. Kertas yang kalau tak print apa-apa tu sama saja nilainya dengan kertas bungkus nasi lemak 50sen tu. Tinggal nak taknak je. Kalau taknak sambung belajar pun mungkin ada sebabnya, bukan sebab dia bodoh tolol with nano count of knowledge. Tak semua orang suka nak belajar sampai tua.

So kalau kamu ada degree sosiologi atau sains sosial atau lain-lain yang sebenarnya tak tau nak guna kat mana lepas tu mintak kerja GAMEN sebab takde firma di luar sana yang hengen hambek hengkau kerja, tak payah bangga tak bertempat kamu tu berpangkat. Bukan nak menghina ya, sebenarnya sikit sangat la degree holder yang 'ikhlas' jadi GAMENizer ni, sebab mostly apply kerja tu sebab degree tak laku. Kalau dah 2 tahun grad dan tak dapat kerja lagi, aku kasi kau gunting handbag COACH kesayangan aku tu, memang akan apply kerja GAMEN.

Dan lazimnya GAMEN akan kasi kau pangkat 'PENGUASA' ke atas lah, ikut ranking dalam jabatan kamu tu. Gred 41 biasa la tu. Tapi bila dah masuk kerja kau kena ingat, kau tu JUNIOR jugak. Kalau tak soal tatakerja, kau mentah jugak soal etika kerja. So keep yourself open to advices even from the seniors of staffs. Tak kisah la dia 11, 12, 17, 22 ke 26 tapi dia still a senior. Kalau taknak respect pangkat dia, respect UMUR dia. Dan jangan salahkan orang menegur kalau kamu memang salah. Especially kalau jabatan kamu tu ada uniform, kamu tu bawa bulan, bintang dan crown di bahu. Wajarlah kalau yang tua dan berpengalaman menegur kamu bila attitude tak match dengan status kamu sebagai pegawai kanan. Ini tak, status FB jugak kamu siarkan. Yang kamu pegi ganyang orang segala gred tu apahal. Lepas tu sedap je mulut cakap orang 'masa kecik suruh belajar tak mau'. Habis tu kalau semua jadi bos sapa nak jadi kuli?

Aku bukan apa bila tak puas hati ni, tak semua orang yang berkelayakan tu bertuah apply sesuatu jawatan dan dapat pangkat yang selayaknya dengan qualification. Kadang-kadang yang ada diploma pun terpaksa guna scale SPM je mintak kerja, dah itu je jawatan yang bukak. Ada jugak yang berdegree, masters, cuma tak belajar untuk naik pangkat. Tapi kalau kau berpangkat, kau tak payah la pegi hina orang bawahan kau. Konon yang makan cili terasa pedas, memanglah... Tak semua orang bertuah dapat jadi bos umur muda macam kau. Bersyukur sudahlah, jangan hina pulak orang yang tak berapa nak bertuah. What more kalau orang tua yang kau carut-carut tu, dia macam mak bapak kau la sacrifice nak hantar anak-anak dia yang baya-baya kau tu sambung belajar tinggi-tinggi sampai atas gunung. Tak kisah la dia takde degree, tapi kau tau ke anak dia nanti jadi ape? Doktornya, engineernya, saintisnya? Ntah2 degree diorang lagi best dari degree kau.

Bagi aku kita sekarang ni bertuah, we're the fortunate young and successful generation. Tapi pada masa yang sama kita ada adab sopan budaya bangsa, yang tua dihormati itu pasti. Jangan bangga sangat dengan gred BOS kamu, sebab di luar nanti kamu akan bekerja dengan public, staff kamu yang hadap dengan public. Kalau diorang tak beri kerjasama, boleh jalan ke kerja. Still you owe it to the kuli. Ingat selalu, to be respected you have to respect others firsts. And in almost any situation, you EARN respect. I know comment section Dukun mungkin akan berbunyi 'The Boss Is Never Wrong' tapi to me 'Nobody Is Always Right'.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

'Elak Cerai Berai Terbarai'

4 hari...menderita sakit rindu, ubatnya pun lama lagi nak pulang. :(

Ohai Sunday people, don't you have any better thing to do on this lovely day instead of reading my piece of shoot? hehe...It's OK I understand buggers like you, I'm writing my entry this SUNDAY , get what I mean? OK--OK--mari cakap BM. Cakap BMS nanti Uncle Lee tak faham. Englosh pon korang malas nak baca, pastu taknak komeng, pastu aku rasa post aku tak best, pastu start random post cerita pasal hari nak hujan dan baju aku basah kena tumpah milo. Walhal blog ini sepatutnya rasa macam diary, korang tak baca pun takpa no'.

Dah...dah... Hari ini aku nak beri korang tips 'Elak Cerai Berai Terbarai' kat korang, actually boleh apply to kekasih jugak. Tips ini penting sebab kalau masa gaduh tu senang-senang taik ayam je nak maki hamun kekasih kita ye. Walaupun tahu hati pasangan kita tu macam bunga lalang, kalau ditiup akan melayang jauh-jauh susah nak tangkap. Silap haribulan hinggap kat taman lain. Masa tu nak kata apa? Marah kita ni macam angin, kalau membadai adalah korbannya. Wah...bermadah wei! Tapi kalau memang jodoh tak ada tak apalah...asal dah mencuba mempertahankan mahligai semi-D yang kita bina bersama. Cari jelah banglo baru.

Baiklah ; macam biasa mak hayam mulakan lesson hari ini dengan MARAH itu sendiri. Dengar pun buat kita sakit hati kan? Best ke marah-marah? Apa hasilnya? To me cuma sakit hati sahaja, and like wise people said, never sleep with anger. Bangun pagi muka akan berkerut macam umur 70 tahun. Nasihat ini khususnya penting untuk pasangan yang sudah berkahwin. Sebolehnya selesaikan masalah kamu, kecil atau besar sebelum kamu tidur.

OK MARAH ; ketika ini darah akan menyerbu otak kita, jantung akan berdegup macam nak gila, muka jadi panas, otak jadi tak waras, mulut akan mencarut, and oops! tangan jadi ringan. By that time it's almost too late. Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned, kalau perempuan merajuk susah nak pujuk. Kalau lelaki merajuk? Adeh...mintak simpang malaikat 44. Tak mahu la cinta terputus di tengah jalan, sesat di simpang, sangkut dalam jam, semput di tangga, terkunci dalam lift. Btw kenapa ye marriage dipanggil rumah tangga? ehehe...

PERTAMA : Masa tengah naik hantu, seeloknya jauhkan diri masing-masing sekejap. Sekejap ye anak-anak bukan lama-lama. Kalau gaduh-gaduh manja tu amik la masa sejam dua bermain di verandah rumah, menyanyi dalam kereta, pegi minum gerai mamak. Tapi kalau kes besar sampai nak ke pejabat kadi tu, amik masa seminggu bercuti SENDIRIAN. Beri ruang untuk hati kita rindu semula. Untuk 2 orang yang sedang marah berada dalam radius yang sama samalah seperti berdiri tengah highway. Disaster!

KEDUA : Ingat semula apa yang mengikat kalian berdua. Saat-saat indah dahulu tu cuba ingat balik, walaupun sidia dah mungkin berubah, kaji semula kenapa dia berubah. Mungkin kita pun menyumbang kepada situasi hodoh yang berlaku.

KETIGA : Kaji semula apa yang sebenarnya kamu marahkan. Mungkin masalah sebenar adalah KITA sendiri. Buang ego jauh-jauh sewaktu muhasabah diri ye? Ego tu buat kita buta dan enggan mengaku salah.

KEEMPAT : Bincang. Kan senang kalau dapat berbincang dengan kepala yang ringan dan sejuk. Kalau boleh minta maaflah walaupun bukan kamu yang mulakan. Cari dan buka jalan perdamaian, somebody have to start somewhere. At least agree to disagree is a meeting point. Dan kalau memang adalah kesilapan kamu, make it a point to never do it again.

KELIMA : Berbaik semula, bermula dengan kaunseling. Bila dah OK tu, dating lagi lah. Pupuk semula bunga cinta kamu yang dah layu kena panas gurun tu. Re-ignite the Fire, Fan the Flame. Jangan malu untuk bercinta lagi kerana kita berubah dengan usia, tidak bermakna kita diam sebumbung tidur sekatil bergolek sama-sama kita sudah kenal pasangan kita sepenuhnya. Sentiasa bercakap, kenalkan diri kamu kepada pasangan, sidia tu bukannya psikik dapat baca hati kamu.

KEENAM : Gembirakan dirimu, bila kamu gembira hubungan dengan pasangan kamu juga pasti berjalan dengan baik. Jangan paksa diri kamu suka apa yang sidia suka. Have some ME time, be with your own friends. Do what you like. Just watch your limit, make sure you don't hurt or neglect your partner along the way.

Ha...anak-anak hayam semua. Itulah dia nasihat mak kali ini ye. Bukan apa kebelakangan ini suka sangat buat entry tips dan petua, saja berkongsi pengetahuan kaunseling yang sedikit di dada mak ni. Dada mak ni kembang semangkuk jer. ehek! Mak kalau boleh nak sambung belajar psikologi, lama lagi la. Saja untuk pengetahuan sendiri. Mak takla sempurna segala segi, ada jugak cubaan dan dugaan, but it all amount to a bittersweet relationship I'd like to cherish forever.

So u'ols, ketahuilah, tak semua cinta itu akan berakhir bahagia dan bahagia pun kalau tak dijaga berakhir juga. Dan tak cukup kalau sebelah pihak sahaja menjaga hati, it takes two to tango, salsa, cha-cha. Kalau nak sorang-sorang sila belajar poco-poco yer? Bah, jaga dirimu disana!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010


Kasihan paduhal Ahmoi sakit, mun ndak sik ku gago menggagah dirik speku nya ada sesi dating-mating ngan Mr bin Abdullah. Hehe...bukan aku sorang nak? Kawan-kawan lain pun asa ku speku juak. Rupa-rupanya sakit ngembak ngail. Semoga cepat sembuh k? Olalala...kesian...

Maka dengan itu kubukak cerita bahawa aku sakit juak. Sik la sakit teruk sampey sik larat oh, choi!!! Sik sihat ala-ala manja jak gitu, atchium-atchium jak. Last Sunday bangun tido alu start berkasik, geruk asa skres, maka start la asa mah nyawa, sikda selera makan kak ya sik bertenaga. Tapi ya bukan la isi kandungan buku teks k? Tajuk sebenar hari ini ialah kaitan kasih-sayang dengan kesihatan.

Y'all tauk kan, laki ku sikda di sisi kinek, paling menyesakkan recent update madah nya tambah period kerja to 120-150 days approx. Alu semput dada I.

Ok, back to our topic, berdasarkan kajian, orang yang berpasangan lebih sihat berbanding orang single. Maksudnya, paras hormon happy a.k.a endorfin dalam badan kita sentiasa terhasil akibat ransangan rasa bahagia dari daily gestures like hugging, touching, etc...yang aku malu mok tulis sini. Kajian sentiasa membuktikan individu yang gembira adalah lebih terhindar dari jangkitan bakteria atau virus-virus yang merbahaya, ke berbahaya, ada cikgu BM sik mok correct aku?
Kajian Kes : Mr Vai jauh, sikda orang sayang me everyday, sikda orang make proper breakfast sebelum turun kerja sebab bininya gago conteng muka, sikda orang berik hug lamak-lamak just to say it's OK when problems come up. Sebab yalah aku kenak selesema, sore throat and might be cold fever hanya setelah Mr Vai e-mailed me about his extended working days.

Passionate kisses are good for your oral health!It’s not all doom and gloom. Research into passionate kissing has uncovered many valuable health benefits. Healthier mouth, saliva contains substances that fight bacteria, viruses and fungi. Deep kissing increases the flow of saliva, which helps to keep the mouth, teeth and gums healthy.
Kajian Kes : Sikkan aku mok cium tokey mi kolok ya... isk...

Love is always good for your heart
. When with your loved ones your blood pressure goes down, allowing better reasoning and keeping anger at bay. Good blood pressure means good heart condition.
Kajian Kes : Bila sang Arjuna jauh di mata, jiwa mala jak datang moha. Asa emosi lalu mok ngansa' jak nyawa. Hilang pen pun emosi, sungguh tidak munasabah. Selalu macam tok boleh sakit jantung seh.

Love makes you put more regard on your health status. You will want to be around longer so you put effort in securing good health.
Kajian Kes : Kenak aku peratikan, laki aku ya makin Tall, Dark and Gendut jak oh... Ok at least rasa sayang antara kami 2 dah memotivasikan nya eksesais, start jogging yang lamak sik diamal, makan oat untuk kurangkan kolestrol dan berusaha berhenti merokok.

Love makes you look good
. Actually, cinta tok molah kita 'feel' good. Secara tak langsung akan membuatkan kita glow. Seri kata orang, cuba nanga muka bakal pengantin, kacak sik?
Kajian Kes : Sikboh molah kajian, I nang sentiasa Hot Gojes and Fabeles. hehe...hik-hik..

Bagaimana Untuk Memupuk Kasih Sayang
-walau jauh travelling, kita ada sms, video call, e-mail, so apa cara sekalipun sentiasa lah cari jalan untuk berkomunikasi. Kalau berdekatan eloklah diamalkan meluangkan masa bercakap berdua hati ke hati. Quality time kata orang.

-jangan kedekut pujian, kalau masa bergerek selalu memuji, dah kawen tu teruskan lah... Apa salahnya puji, 'nyaman laksa tok yang...kalah laksa di kedey' ndak ka kembang dada bini mendengarnya?

-unik untuk anda berdua, suka pangku-memangku kah, cari kutu laki kah, cat kuku bini kah, manicure/pedicure laki kah, something intimate, untuk men'sweet'kan perhubungan.

-jangan kelebihan ajak. sayangi pasangan kita sepenuhnya.

-percayalah, semua yang sudah berkahwin akan mengakui hakikat tok. keluarga pasangan kita menyumbang kepada keharmonian hubungan kita laki-bini.

Sekian tips-tips untuk hari ini, nyawa agik malas tok mok menghurai, cintai dirimu sayangi cintamu.

Thursday, April 15, 2010


ini entry amnesia

There are times when I have to stop and recall my year of birth and start counting my age at present year. Lame, but I just don't feel myself worrying about my age. I find it funny that I, a woman have---not the same worries many other woman does.

I think it's fine to eventually have a few creases at certain age. Who doesn't age? But I think running for age-defying serum at 18 y.o is silly. Spending thousands on these products also, is silly. If you can afford it, it's fine. But not for those who have to borrow for cosmetic surgery. Practice good lifestyle, healthy food, work out regularly, laugh and smile a lot can do you good in the long run. Worrying makes you age faster, so try not no worry too much for it doesn't solve the problem.

It is OK to gain few kilos because it means you had enjoyed good food. Never starve yourself, have food. But just watch it, don't get FAT.

Dress your age is so...passe. Wear your dress not the other way round. If your dress from your 20's still look good on your 30's or 40's body, so be it-WEAR IT!

Stay in love, you'l forget your age.

Why this post today? hehe...bunyik macam Ahmoi yerk... Because I saw these. When I said forget your age I didn't mean you can intentionally make yourself look OLD.

Duffy is 26

Amy Winehouse is 26

Miley Cyrus is 17!!!

Freakin' Me out!

sheesh----->keep yourself youthful, feel young at heart.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Entry Jiwa Yang Miang

Aku tahu aku tengah emo, tapi something terjadi bikin aku sengih-sengih gagahkan diri buat entry baru. So enjoy yek?

Bermula topik hari ini let me cherita how I was back at school. My hair was frizzy and bad hair day was everyday. I had 1 missing front tooth which made me look funny and dorky. I always avoid wearing glasses until Form 6, then my degree got worse. Seriously sikit lagi macam Ugly Betty.

I was a chirpy one, somehow many found me annoying. I fear not making bold statements thus creating unwanted enemies. But I don't care. Most boys stayed away from me, and I had very few girlfriends. Not so fun teen days, being a school prefect doesn't help either. So I assume there are no admirers.


Terkayang-kayang (yer...merayau-rayau, betul kah?) dalam facebook hari ini aku jumpa seorang insan/mamat yang pernah jadi schoolmate/classmate/playmate-err. Terjadi la insiden 'add as friend' and then terus chat sekejap. Last kitorang jumpa masa Form 5 dulu, itupun tak sama kelas he being the superior brain performance and me the one notch lower. Mamat ni dulu pendiam, diam sangat kadang-kadang answer dia cuma angguk dan geleng sahaja. Jarang sangat nak tengok dia hoo-haa, kecuali kalau dia salah makan. Hehe... And this guy is VERY smart, dalam top 7 achiever di sekolah la jugak. So when we found each other dalam FB terjadi la chat berikut, swear to GOD Mr Vai shouldn't know. *ada ubahsuai lebih kurang jak

L: i sik recognize u lah, u look different now, mengancam...

Me: oh u flaterer, I am flat on the floor dah. bet u learned and now a gentleman

L: well, tapi sik la kasanova, I was your silent admirer back at school u know?

Me: apa sejak 2 menjak I tukar gambar profile everybody seem to be my 'secret admirer' dah... I thought back then u boys hate me.

L: well, not me, I like u.


This other guy cuma pernah Form 1 saja before switching school. Smart too as he started Form 1 with Petronas full scholarship. He hated my hair, hated my guts and last night confessed that he too, was my secret admirer.

G: aku sik suka bila kau sik senyum mun kenak anok, but actually I hated you because I was not at your level. u were so confident, I was scared of u.

Me: well I never knew.


These guys are now successful in their career, yang sorang makin hensem, mata sepet, selebih chat content adalah sama, regretting their choice of being only silent admirer. They could have stood a chance of 'having' me, now they see morphed from an ugly duckling to a pretty swan(yer...sempat puji dirik) if they acted sooner. Both said sayangnya you dah tak available. Well, hakikatnya begitu, selalunya yang hodoh, tembam, sepet, hitam,bangang, nerd, dorky, pendiam masa zaman sekolah dulu might likely be the successful, hansome, rich, witty, charming, pretty, hot, gojes and fabulous. You never know. Pengajarannya, kalau AWAK berkenan dengan seseorang, luahkan biar dia tahu. Kalau dah terlambat nanti gigit jari sampai kudung, apa retinya? And for those yang masih hodoh-tembam-sepet-hitam-bangang-nerd-dorky-pendiam, don't despair, masih ada masa untuk awak untuk BLOOM sampai mana tahu jadi...

OMG macam Orlandoo Bloom ke,

WEWIIT macam Liv Tyler ke.

We never know...

Tapi dah borak-borak dengan Ashley, I have to agree. Kadang-kadang rekindled relationship tok boleh menggugat rasa jiwa dan raga, tapi jangan sampai salah langkah. What you have now is the one you need to appreciate more than the past. Walau sehensem mana pun jejaka dalam FB kamu itu, walau dia jadi engineer gaji ribu-riban, walau secantik mana pun kawan lama awak itu dalam FB because we girls sure know how to manipulate camera angles to accentuate our assets if wished. Camwhoring is what we do best so watch out. What you see isn't necessarily what you'll get.

Kalau ada pasangan 'sekarang' yang menghargai, menyayangi, setia dan sanggup berkorban jaga kamu berhingus tak bangun katil seminggu, cuci seluar dalam kamu sebab kamu tak larat, tak malu beli pad or tampon untuk kamu masa emergency, yang tahu kamu selalu kentut pagi atau malam, tahu kamu alergik udang so dia makan/kutip udang dalam mee kamu dan beri daging ayam dalam mee dia pulak for you, itulah orang yang layak mendapat perhatian dan kesetiaan kamu. So know your priority. Jangan tergugat dengan apa yang terpampang dalam FB dan kenangan lampau.

I love you guys, but I'm just not available. Aku sengih-sengih lagi. Jom tukar gambar profile.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Entry Sarcastic

Riang sungguh aku dua tiga hari ini, modem aku mati, susah gaban nak install pulak. Riang sebab marah-marah, kejap hidup kejap mati. Riang sebab keypad jadi bebal, tekan o jadi p. Riang sebab icon desktop pun hilang macam biskut cipsmore. Sungguh obvious ada hantu dalam komputer.

Biar aku moody sekejap, dengan hormon hujung bulan, dengan laki yang jauh di mata, huh, sungguh alasan malas mok hapdet blog, hehe...

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Nikon D90 for RM3800


Condition tip-top
Baru sangat2
Memory 8Gb

#hehe...saja jak mek speku nanga ada sik orang mok beli rega ya.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

OMG! OMG! I Dig This!

sexy back

sleek front

OMG!!! Aku ada DSLR yang bernama D90, and it's darn hard to use. Dahla berat. Mok belajar terpaksa ikut team outdoor photophilia yang mostly amik gambar model gigi jongang or perut ada 4 spare tyre or male model yang ada 1pack abdomen rather than 6pack hunk. They chase sunset, moonset, no set, water tide, building, landscape, wedding and what nots. No fun seriously especially when it comes to people feeling harrassed by constant random clicks around them.. And I have no time to do so unless if I'm single. D90 ended up berehat dalam kotak sik terguna macam kasam basik, waiting for Mr Vai to come home and make love with it.

However I do love taking photo dengan camera compact, and this one really fits the bill. Mahal (3K++ OK?) tapi worth the buy I guess. Ladies must agree compact stuff win! This camera is only 296 gm. Handbag aku berat dengan macam2 barang yang I'm not really sure I can live without so imagine kalau aku heret DSLR here and there. And the Olympus PEN E-PL1 is a win again in term of handling, practically DSLR quality for a dummy like me. Memandangkan I don't dig learning manual setting ia ada Live Guide for starter macam cikgu ajar murid, which I really loike. And when you feel so dumb the dummy can be you can always rely on this function - iAuto or Intellegent Auto. In term of style it comes in 3 colors here in Malaysia which are black, white and GOLD... now I'm drooling.

Lens kit 14-42mm f/3.5-5.6 M yang boleh diasingkan dengan body. It has 12.3 megapix sensor quality for goodness sake! Can capture video in 720p HD movie too!

If you happened to be a lens geekoes, eleven lenses have now been formally launched for the Micro Four Thirds system, if you include the new, simplified version of the 14-42mm kit lens launched with the E-PL1. Lenses are available to cover ranges from 7-200mm (14-400mm equivalent), though only the 17, 20 and 45mm focal lengths are available at F2.8 or faster.

OK basically I'm in love with this camera tapi tengah modal-less to own one. Tunggu Mr Vai gaji then maybe I'll consider membodek him to buy me one. Or maybe not. Ada contest yang offer this thing kah?


Friday, April 2, 2010

He's Not Laughing Today

Lelaki ini tidak lawak, tidak hebat melawak, cuma lawak lame dia boleh remind kita that life is too short not to laugh. Dia paksa kita sengih kambing otw turun kerja dengar Riuh Pagi Era. Cara dia approach was just like; a guy cuba charm a new girl, lame sangat. And yet you still smile though not ROTFLYAO. He's the kind of guy you never care for when he's around and then you'll miss him when he's gone. Personaliti yang sharp and uber nice within. Without him now Riuh Pagi Era will be less unique, and I'm sure I'd be yawning right till the moment I arrive to the office.

Din Beramboi @ Mior Ahmad Fuad bin Mior Badri
I'll miss you man, really. May Your Soul Rest In Peace.

Wednesday, March 31, 2010


Pagi tadi Mr Vai hantar aku turun kerja. Niat asal was to have breakfast together but memandangkan nya dah aher lalu lah lalang sik jadi. Ya now he's gone, away offshore. Away for maybe 50 days or more. Aik mata aku walau ditahan mauk juak bocor kedak paip dalam public toilet. Beg nya udah ku pack; coverall/check-boots/check-boxers/check-allnighter/check. Senangnya packing beg makhluk nama lelaki. Kubekalkan oat and minyak panas, sweet kan? Adoehhh...mun ikut nyawa mauk bekalkan sigek supermarket.

Macam-macam dipesannya, jaga anak bait2. Mun stress iboh suka ngigit anak, sakit ya. Makan tengah hari jangan tinggal, pukul tiga bukan lunch dah. Mun rindu ngan nya sikboh mala jak nanga video file dalam henpon, makin piluk kelak katanya. Ikan masin jangan dimakan selalu, tinggi darah kelak. Sayur makan, iboh susun tepi pinggan. Baju malam tadik cucikan, jangan mok simpan pakey cium tiap malam mbak tido kedak hari ya, tuala juak. Malam tido awal, laki sikda neman kelakar tengah malam kelak hantu datang tetak nanga aku main Facebook pukul 1.30 pagi. Blogging ya jangan mok muji laki dirikmpun ajak2, mual orang baca. Boh manas jak kerja.

Pesan aku ngan nya? Jaga diri sia. I'll miss you, *sob-sob, come back safely okay? *sob-sob

Aok laki ku lebih banyak menjaga dari dijaga. So independent I dont know what to really care about him. Sebab ya bila nya pegi walau ke Bintulu sekalipun aku akan rasa lost and lonely.

Orang cuma tauk kerja offshore tok masyuk...lumayan donk. Aok tapi aku rasa sentiasa bermain dengan bahaya. Mun sampey pegi ke pesisir Iran aku risaukan Al-Qaeda movements who kidnap and torture and kill and what not anything that goes across their path. African seas are infested with kidnapers too, mostly pirates. Where there is blackgold there will also be monster predators. Yang aku belum dengar is platform minyak kenak hijack*choi*. Malangnya tempat jin bertendang ya lah lubuk rejeki orang kedak laki ku.

So the least I could do is pray for his wellbeing and wait for a safe return. And bila nya cuti I'm sure he's just as happy being a home-husband taking care of his house and family.

Pesanan penaja : distance makes the heart grows fonder. true sangat2.

#esok lusa I'll be back. until then, let me schmell his night shirt to my heart's content.

Thursday, March 18, 2010


OK here we go. Mizara ngan Ahmoi memang sikmauk aku lamak gilak berhibernasi sidak nya pegi give me this wonderful award I kinda like see as another form of TAGging. I can't just ignore you. Genius...However thank you all for awarding me this emantel as a Beautiful Blogger.

Ahmoi put me on no.1; what the huh. So here goes nothing.
I don't want to work out 15 recipients as that will take up so much time so I've decided anybody reading will be a winner, wohooo!!! This means jejaka pun boleh la dikira beautiful blogger ya!

1. YOU 6. YOU 11. YOU
2. YOU 7. YOU 12. YOU
3. YOU 8. YOU 13. YOU
4. YOU 9. YOU 14. YOU
5. YOU 10. YOU 15. YOU

BOLEH ka???

7 things about myself

1. I'm a born Public Speaker, so don't argue with me or you'll have a lot of reason to hate me. I was in the debate team too. Which also spells trouble.

2. I love fish end of the story.

3. Aku alergik 'shelled seafood' meaning udang, ketam, kerang dan ... Tapi dah nama degil, makan jak asal jangan banyak gilak. Dapat diterima mun masak rebus, panggang dan deep fried. Keyword is moderation.

4. Aku gila PEKASAM; jujoh ayek liur ngenang... Am a certified addict pun.

5. Sarcastic...

6. Pemarah, sangat tidak sabar but I'm working on it.

7. Kuat mengelamun sampey Mr Vai *imagine bunyi cerita dongeng* kreung.... kring.... tingtong... everytime he caught me staring blank. And he'd go snap2! Its an escapade really.



Sunday, March 14, 2010

Aku Hilang Arah

Tauk ku...lamak sik ngepost papa sitok. Tapi kalian harus paham, mun jak ada kalian yang baca belog aku. Aku sibuk...gilak.

Aku ada Lord Of The Ring 1,2,3 to watch.
Harry Potter 5 siri.
Chucky 1-5 juak.
The Proposal DVD.
Alice in Wonderland(tok belom gik).

On top of that aku ada 3 Sidney Sheldon to read too.

Why in the blue planet do I have to do these things? Well, maybe I'm simply a pathetic geek. Musim membaca sudah tiba, ada tanda akan berhibernasi lama-lama sampai kenak rehab gik.

Manage yourself, I'll be bak.


Sunday, March 7, 2010


Dear BDiary

It’s been long since I last wrote down my two cents in here. So far I was caught-up in an emotional turbulance which disable my rational thinking and drown my happy self. Nobody said it’s going to be easy, life is not easy, relationship is not easy, and marriage CERTAINLY is not easy. Forgive me Bdiary, it was hard for me to put down my feelings in words. But now I think the time comes for me to share with you something about myself, my opinion on relationship and how far would you go for it.

I am easy to read, like an open book with illustrations. I am not good at hiding my feelings, so transparent that if I like/love somebody it shows and if I hate certain thing/person it shows even more. My action always betray my conscience, when I wanted to appear angry I’d cry, and it’s not easy to appear icy when all you want is to communicate and clear the air. When all effort to veil my feeling failed, I’d still end up crying. My heart is so fragile my tears are like windscreen shower. When I see an old lady alone at coffee shop I can’t help but think that she’s alone in life then I’d feel sad. I saw and old man at bus stop and can’t help myself thinking his children left him. And now there’s abandoned baby everywhere, my tear went auto pilot. When I’m emotional I find my way into this blog, and let you buggers read my mind. Hmmm…

If there’s anything that my heart refuse to give in easily it will be forgiveness. I don’t forgive easily, I don’t forget easily, maybe not a good quality but it keeps me from hurting myself when betrayal repeats itself. But I don’t revenge, it is not my style. Mr Vai doesn’t appologize with ease, it is always me who embrace humility to make up after each fight. When we fight he tends to space himself from me [I hate being alien to him] in order to avoid further damage from painful words we throw at each other. Truth is always painful so we deny it so often it hurts the other party. The act of humility is noble, at least to me. When you are in a relationship WORTH SAVING, it is important to know when to swallow your ego. A man will always be man, they have an ego size bigger than their brain and penis combined its true. So I always appologize although I know I wasn’t at fault. But then again after I appologize, he’ll usually realize how much I love him that I’m willing to always give in to him. And I get his respect. Most of the time it is up to us women to start an effort in order to save our love, keep the fire burning, keep the passion alive and ultimately keep HIM by ourside. Many of us tried and failed, then it may be because the relationship wasn’t meant to be. If that happens, it is not our fault. Don’t blame yourself when all your effort to save your relationship goes down into the drain, unappreciated. Don’t punnish yourself for being in the failure. But think of it as a loss for him to let go of a precious love you offered.

Note that in any argument, never show it to public or people around you. I made it a must to solve any conflict behind the kids. SMSes, e-mail, in the car are the privacy available for choice. I so far had managed to keep verbal arguments at bay by texting Mr Vai while we’re taking our time away from each other. He may be in the verandah and me in the kitchen but we always manage to solve everything without shouting at each other through SMSes. It is better that way compared to talking when mad during which we tend to slip tongue and said things we don’t really mean. At least through SMSes we get the time space to let words go through our head and let the tiny brain work on better reasoning. And then, when it comes to mending heart wound always start with a touch - on his hand. It doesn’t really matter who started the fight, for all my concern we live a short life to waste time on silly and regretful fights.

However I’m big in my effort to show my affection towards my loved ones. Never was I lack of hugs and kisses, I made it seem normal to hug and kiss Mr Vai in front of his family, and kids too. It is not to show off how loving we are, but I am determined to nurture love in the family unit itself simply by showing a good example. The first time was awkward for sure. Many men find it hard to express themselves, so be strong enough to show how. But when he doesn’t show it, do not despair. Man are like walls, you can lean on it when needed but don’t expect it to embrace you and offer soothing words like a girlfriend do.

I was always afraid of relationship that I never stand a date more than 3 months. My allergy towards men was incureable that I broke much heart along the way before I meet my husband. When I met Mr Vai I however was enchanted. I knew I want to keep him forever, grow old together and I told him so. And here we are braving the fourth year together towards many years ahead. My friends think I sacrifice a lot for him, he thinks I sacrificed everything for him but yet I think there’s nothing to gain but LOVE. I’ve waited long for this relationship to happen and to be honest I am blessed to have my dream realized. He never gave me flower, not a petal, and I never hoped for it. It is a winning game, where I have to forgo common romantic imagination for a better real life deal. But he talks like a baby when he feels like it, lie down on my lap and let me listen to his pain, ease his stress. Honestly I was underloved as a child since my step mother doesn’t show much affection towards me. Mr Vai knew of that and now he showered me with love. He watch my diet, ask me about work although I know he doesn’t understand my rambling, and even occasionally baths me *blush*. When I’m in difficult situation and he have no word of comfort to offer, he simply hugs me, and let me wet him with my tears. He is protective of me and that always bring tear to my eyes. What can I say, I am just blessed and very teary too.

So BDiary, or anybody reading,
When looking for a relationship, find one that completes you as a piece. You are a partner not an arm candy. Find the one who give back. Like me maybe you’ll have to make do with the small attention he gives for an unquestionable love and loyalty he has to offer. You may get a typical unromantic husband like mine, but unromantic doesn’t mean unloving. His affection doesn’t have to be made public, just enough for you to know is fine. Find one who appreciates, and honour you as a gift from GOD. Find one who can protect you from harm. And make sure he can accept you as who you are.

If your heart is hurt, give it some time to heal. Things happen for a reason, and time will tell what reason. The next time you find a true love, you’ll feel complete. But a successful relationship needs effort to nurture so be ready to give in whenever it matters. Never expect perfection or you’ll be disappointed. If he’s a fire then be the water. Man are meant to be superior, they were engineered that way so don’t bruise their ego. But NEVER be a doormat, know when to stand for yourself and leave. And pray…may the divine power help keep the love alive till we die, and set a good example of true love to our generations. I would love to have my future grandchildren grow up to be loving, humble and caring people, and tell their own kids about the love story of their great ancestors. That will be sweet.

Till then,

Sunday, February 21, 2010

akhirnya aku di-TAG!!! WARGHHHHH

Mun kitakurang ada baca blog tok dari post awal2 lagi, kitakurang tau aku bukan mangsa TAG and sentiasa mengelak nge-TAG. Bukan anti-sosial ya, cuma dasar pemalas, kerja nge-TAG tok bagiku untuk urang rajin jak, tapi kali tok aku terkena, ayak!!! Ok lah...beradik CULLEN aku nge-TAG maka haruslah aku menjawab.

1. adakah anda rasa HOT?

aku sentiasa perasan hot, gojes and fabulous, so yeah, I'm HOT

2. upload wallpaper pc/laptop yang anda guna sekarang!

3. cerita pasal gambar

mr Vai amik masa di Subic Bay Philippines last year, he so bangga kodok ngan gambar tok

4. bila kali terakhir anda makan pizza?

2 years ago, since switching to blood-drinking-pale-vampire-look i just can't tolerate pizza, it toxify my system, mwahaha

5. lagu terakhir anda dengar

footprints in the sand by kak Ona "Leona Lewis'

6. ape yang anda buat selain menyelesaikan TAG ini

ngerepak mauk kemeh, pi malas mok angkat sebab mok siap TAG cepat, huh

7. selain nama sendiri anda dipanggil nama ape

miss (always a miss)

cik (orang siktauk aku dah berlaki)

adik (by abang2 misai kucing garong)

kak (tok bagi bebudak yang sik tauk apa reti umur)

8. TAG lagi 8 orang (woh2 bukan salah aku nak)

~ok aku TAG jak walau dah kenak TAG, so mun mok tulis 2/3 kali sela lah..









9. siapakah orang no.1 kepada anda?

AMOI~amoi yang always remind me of the one I could've been

10. katakan sesuatu mengenai orang no.5

PAK DUKUN~haha...tengah kanji mok nikah, sila hantar rombongan meminang nya

11. no.3 ada hubungan dengan sape?

MIZARA~apa lagi? mamam mamam dan mamam

12. bagaimana pula dengan no.4?

DUEY~ harusnya ada hubungan sulit ngan Becky M. Leogardo, ney ndak alah percaya kejelitaan hak milik setiap insan

13. pesanan kepada orang no.6

FLEECE MASTER kim salam ngan Obama

14. kata2 cinta untuk orang no.2

FnF ~ cinta terlalu besar untuk disukat, terlalu dekat untuk dilihat, terlalu manis untuk dirasa, sangat dalam untuk diselam, sangat sulit dimengerti, terlalu luas untuk dilihat, ia cuma ada di hati, dapat dinikmati, walau jauh terpisah, seberang benua, seberang nyawa, cuma ada percaya dalam jiwa, cinta sentiasa ada. wah!!!!!!

15. adakah no.7 dan no.8 mempunyai persamaan?


16. berikan 5 perkara yang anda tahu mengenai orang yang menTAG anda

ASMA CULLEN ya perempuan

nya suka ijo

nya suka budak, tapi itu lakonan semata-mata, 5 menet pasya nya gigit

nya suka lagu endon

and she's a LIVERPUDLIAN

chop2x-bukan Q tok tanya tell 5 things about myself ka? ok

I'm kind hearted

I'm foul mouthed person when angry

I CRY easily

I always believe GOD loves me

I like IKAN MASIN N PEKASAM, so the nyums lah

17. persamaan kambing dan lembu

4 kaki

18. perasaan anda wat tag ini

sungguh malas

19. adakah anda tahu si razman itu sengal?

I have to google that name and hell, aku sik kenal mak nya maka aku sik kenal lah anak nya

20. GAY or LES?

mauk mati aku kenak tembak bapak aku, NO!

so there...susah payah aku nahan kemeh, adeh...